Well ten years has come and gone. I was fortunate to be granted a college carreer. It was a very bittersweet experience i suppose. Its not so much the practice and hitting and rah rah stuff i miss. it the comraderie and the bonds that you form with people over five years that i miss. its the joking around on the plane rides, eating all the food you want, and knowing that you belong in a group. Now all of sudden i find myself very much alone in some ways. Gone are the days where you find yourself as part of group tired as hell with your buddies during off season conditioning. Now when i go to the gym its by myself, i know nobody. Its wierd how you can feel alone even though there are a bunch of other sweaty random people around you in the gym. And its wierd saying "i used to play for...", instead of "i play for..." oh well what can you do besides enjoy the memories of something that identified you as a person for so many years. Evenstill, the feeling of being known as someone that used to play for a college eats at me daily, the only option is to forge a new identity and reinvent yourself as an indavidual instead of being part of some collective group.
well thats about all i have to say, so if anyone actually reads this let me know what you think.
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